26/9/11

back to 2 years ago's 26/9 it was a beautiful Sat.
the day i know him....
the day i 1st chat with him through MSN.
we enjoy the chat....even it was the 1st time..
yeah... he did brought a lot of fun and happiness to me...
but time has passed... things changed people changed....
nothing left now.....
i still miss him... even still like him...but i'm enough of chasing ;)
two years is enough for me...
well lets hope theres a better life for me without him :D

never regret knowing him tho :)

random

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wow! haha... i dont check my mail usually...cuz most of it are from FB. haha...
stared to delete some...
i selected a date.....back to 2 years ago...
i checked out the date.....the time he added me....and the comment and wall post of him....
flashed back ....compare to now.... theres nothing left....
and some friend request from my friend....
we have go through so much as time pass by...the friendship now is deeper...
sometimes... i try to recall back the scene that the 1st time of meeting,knowing a friend...HAHA...and sometimes you didnt even know how you get to know your friend...lol... stupid right? :P
but i believe most of the ppl have been in this situation before xD...

i never get moody recently..haha....i'm so glad xD
busy preparing for final exam....
hmmm.... like to sleep and relax myself recently .wahaha...no idea why...
play some relaxing song before going to sleep.... lol..sounds funny...


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A little bit stronger

LYRICS:
Woke up late today and I still feel the sting of the pain
But I brushed my teeth anyway
I got dressed through the mess and put a smile on my face
I got a little bit stronger
Riding in the car to work and I'm trying to ignore the hurt
So I turned on the radio, stupid song made me think of you
I listened to it for minute but I changed it
I'm getting a little bit stronger, just a little bit stronger
And I'm done hoping that we could work it out
I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels
Letting you drag my heart around
And, oh, I'm done thinking that you could ever change
I know my heart will never be the same
But I'm telling myself I'll be okay
Even on my weakest days
I get a little bit stronger
Doesn't happen overnight but you turn around
And a month's gone by and you realize you haven't cried
i'm not giving you a hour or a second or another minute longer
I'm busy getting stronger
And I'm done hoping that we can work it out
I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels
Letting you drag my heart around
And, oh, I'm done thinking, that you could ever change
I know my heart will never be the same
But I'm telling myself I'll be okay
Even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger
I get a little bit stronger
Getting along without you, baby
I'm better off without you, baby
How does it feel without me, baby?
I'm getting stronger without you, baby
And I'm done hoping we could work it out
I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels
Letting you drag my heart around
And, oh, I'm done thinking that you could ever change
I know my heart will never be the same
But I'm telling myself I'll be okay
Even on my weakest days
I get a little bit stronger
I get a little bit stronger
Just a little bit stronger
A little bit, a little bit, a little bit stronger
Just a little stronger

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i'm tired of pretending everything is ok and i tried my best to do something that can bring me happiness.This is so darn hard!.no one can help me tho.

flash back our time being together...the time you were mine..the 1st thing comes to my mind are all those great memories....this makes me not able to move on....

yea..it is so tired that when you decide which way you wanna go... [move on or never give up]

sometimes... you just indirectly hurt me...hurting me without knowing...but this shows that how un-important am i to you...the more you hurt me, the stronger i get....(a little bit,lol)

when ever i really wanna let go you... you will hold me....by talking to me...

you gave me hopes when ever you talk to me....but the chat end up hurting me.maybe you doesnt know that you're hurting me.

keep giving myself a chance getting back with you....i'm just cheating on myself actually.

if he really appreciate me, he will never let me go at the 1st place...

you are having a good life right now and why would you need me in your life?

i'm enough of hurting actually . and i even used to it...LOL. do you ever heard of ppl get used to hurt by someone?haha

yes.. i'm in the situation right now... and never will put hopes...you gave me hopes and took away a few minutes later..this is freaking me out. the cruel world.i lost the word " HOPES"

never appear in my life for him anymore.

i thought i will not be posting stuff bout him anymore.. but i did...

fearing that if one day you having another girl..i hope this day comes after i got over you .

i'm sure one day you will realize that how much i loved you.

How i wish you will be mine again.and of course with the heart.

3 celebration in one week.♥

one of my grandma's sis de Birthday :)
oh.. she has 10 bro and sis.. i know right..thats alot!
i called her sister "yee poh".her son is a doctor ...LOL. so smart sia...
reach there around 7pm
is too early...then yeepoh asked their grandsons to keng gai with us...cuz we're their guess==
the "us" is refering to me and my bro..
actually we dont know them... yea..serious.. every year we will be meeting them..but didnt even
talk to each other before.. maybe just "hi"? (force by parents)lol
was sitting on a round table...trying to thk a topic...lol..so lame...and awkward
one of the uncle suggest them to talk about football..lol..sienzzzzz.
oh.. one more thing...i'm the only girl there before my cousin arrive..
after eating...they went up stairs play ps3 which is also football game..gosh..whole day football...
so awkward that i'm sitting there alone while the rest is adults right?
so i went up sitting there diam diam... and i got a "ge mei liang" on the sofa...HAHAHA

purpose of my camera :P

sook mun, me, jing mun

looked so fat sitting on a small thingy xD

weird....

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SUNDAY night ....
went to wedding dinner..
this one is my grandpa's bro's daughter's wedding dinner
haha.. so complicated


i dey jia wu ... one of the pic took on that day...
know whats dey jia wu? not sure the spelling..
dey jia wu is something like it didnt happen yet but you dont know why it flash on my mind b4 it happened...
wow right!
haha
i didnt upload here tho BLEK :P

weird face!

i planed to wear this at first..but.... my younger bro said that this skirt seems like more suitable for picnic== and the alder bro said that it looks like indian style ! lol... fine then..

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Mid-autumn :)
i miss celebrating with the rest of my cousins..one of them having UPSR the other day..so he not able to come over to celebrate...and this makes his bro also cant come over as well..
so boring~~
only 6 ppl playing...
i just dont know why i like crowed so much :P
yea... miss my childhood so dam much..
i used to celebrate this festival at ipoh with my mother side relatives..
untill std 5.... i moved to selangor...
i miss those days!

Moral folio

i got nothing to post...
so ..i simply blog je la :P

Finally i had took the Pictures for Moral Folio.... so dumb weih....
posting there doesnt mean you did everything right?
i did some for acting.... half way left the work there but some for real :P

alam sekitar :D

Berkembangan diri.
purposely go wash my shoe
xD

Cacat pose :(
Alam sekitar? LOL



SEE DA DIFF ???
HAHAHA
Awesome xP






-END-

change ME!

 play this before you proceed to this  post :P

( always wanted to put this song as my blog background music.. but..dont now why always error...gaaa!)


this mornig... after recess...
went back to my own places...
回想起年头。。。。我的心情生不如死。。。
爱做在自己的座位偷偷的哭也有，忍不住大哭的时候也有。。。。
还有一次。。。i cried in chemistry tuition class...
that time i tak boleh tahan....i cried infront of teacher... i used my hair to cover... and look at the book... copy down what teacher read out....i thk he saw  it.. but just diam diam ni....

心情很乱。。。 乱乱乱！
我已经很努力的不想再知道他最近的状况了
但是我自己不争气。。。。somemore... his name always come out from ppl's mouth...
i admit i miss him everyday.. i just think of him ni..but it was like dam long i didnt really recall back the memories d.....
im worrying....... will he forever stay in my mind? NO~~~ please go away.. i dont need you :(
我很讨厌自己。。。 everytime..after i emo... i will tell myself to be a better person... but after few days... the same thing agn. LOL!
竟然他都放手了。。。为什么还要把自己捆着那么久？我应该打开窗口看看，体验一下我从没有体验过的世界。。。我也得放手了。。为什么？为什么我要爱他爱的那么辛苦？甚至自尊也可以不要了。。。明明，本来就有一个视我为他宝贝的人我却没有去珍惜？算了。。这条路是我自己选的。。。
tomorrow... Sep 6 d.... i also never aspect him to rmb anything....
just fine la...
对不起。。我并不伟大。。我。。放手了。。我要在有更多的回忆了两年了。。够了为你而在生命奋斗两年了。。累了


别人放弃你。。。。 你没有可能连自己都放弃吧？

Erasers are not made for those who make Errors, but made for those who are willing to correct their Mistakes-Dylanding

hahaha! this phrase from facebook by dylanding.lol...

我们之间过去的回忆。。。i will hide it in my heart...cuz....i dont seems to find any way to rub it off...

 至少。。。。我们的分开的方法比较单纯 。。。。过后还有联络。。。当回朋友了。。。
不过我觉得很气的是。。。他。。posted a status... say something like... hurt a heartbroken de ppl de feeling....
do you thk ppl want it ..huh?
ok..i dont thk he's talking bout me..but.. HELLO...i'm in the situation now... how can he say that?
我读过之后。。。。你知道你彻彻底底的让我失望了嘛？。。。有点觉得你很恐怖。。。

i'm trying to end this...  ;D
lol..well.. it ended for like 6months ago... 
i'm just the way too late :P




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EXTRA:

here's some quotes that i like... from this guy...he's in my  fb friend list..but i have no idea whose that..lol..

 this 5 is the best :)

哭的时候没人哄，我学会了坚强；怕的时候没人陪，我学会了勇敢；烦的时候没人问，我学会了承受；累的时候没人可以依靠，我学会了自立。就这样我找到了自己，原来我很优秀，更可贵的是，世界上，只有一个我！渐渐地，我成熟了，因为没有更大的不如意，所以现在偶尔的不如意也是幸福的!

心累，就是常常徘徊在坚持和放弃之间，举棋不定。烦恼，就是记性太好，该记的，不该记的都会留在记忆里

不要真的以为得不到才是最好的,不如好好珍惜现在拥有

不要用女朋友的数量来显示你的魅力,你完全可以用事业和顾家来展示你的优秀

经历过情感失败的女人都知道，如果一个男人不要你了，那么就算他的家人和他闹决裂，就算你的家人找他拼命，甚至就算你向他下跪，他只会越来越看不起你，在纠缠中把对你最后的一点愧疚和情义都磨灭掉。所以女人，请不要卑贱地挽回爱情!!

付出真心，才会得到真心，却也可能伤的彻底。保持距离，就能保护自己，却也注定永远寂寞!!!!!!

两个人一起是为了快乐，分手是为了减轻痛苦，你无法再令我快乐，我也唯有离开，我离开的时候，也很痛苦，只是，你肯定比我痛苦，因为我首先说再见，首先追求快乐的是我!

分手后的思念不叫思念，叫犯贱!

当你为了讨好全世界，而失去自己，就好像你在电影院里，只忙着卖爆米花，别人享受了一场美梦，你却连掌声都没有。当全世界都乱成一团，至少你还拥有自己，不用人和天时地利。人生苦短，如果你不能做自己，就等于失去所有的人生

有些故事，不一定要讲给所有人听；有些悲伤，不一定谁都会懂；有些伤口，时间久了就会慢慢长好；有些委屈，受过了想通了也就释然了；有些伤痛，忍过了疼久了也成习惯了；有些藏在心底的话，不想说也就没必要说了。其实，并不是所有的痛，都可以呐喊；不是所有的爱，都可以表白

女人要让自己的人生成为喜剧，不能爱上一个不爱自己的男人！一个女人最卑微的事，是把自己交给一个不爱的男人。一个女人最不幸的事，是不能和自己最爱的男人在一起。一个女人最悲哀的事，是自己最爱的男人，心不在自己身上。无论怎样，女人都要找一个爱自己的男人!!

当你觉得处处不如人时，不要自卑，记得你只是平凡人。当别人忽略你时，不要伤心，每个人都有自己的生活，谁都不可能一直陪你。当你看到别人在笑时，不要以为世界上只有你一个人在伤心，其实别人只是比你会掩饰。当你很无助时，你可以哭，但哭过你必须要振作起来，即使输掉了一切，也不要输掉微笑

我不是碰不到更好的，而是因为已经有了你，我不想再碰到更好的；我不是不会对别人动心，而是因为已经有了你，我就觉得没必要再对其他人动心；我不是不会爱上别的人，而是我更加懂得珍惜你，能在一起不容易，已经选定的人就不要随便放手；世界上的好人数不清，但遇到你就已经足够!

我们常常忘记自己想要的究竟是什么，常常迷惘于自己需要的是什么，然后花大把大把的时间去思考这样的问题，想到了却下不了决心去做，做了却没有足够的勇气去坚持。重复着长时间的忘记和短暂的想起，就这样挥霍掉了我们的青春。也许，年轻真的没有什么不可以吧。

UING THE SUCK PHONE AGN. ARG!S WHY ONEARTH I CANT ERASE?! I MEAN ERASE == SO BORING UNTIL I HAVE TO TALK TO MTYSELF HERE== BORING! AND MY EMOTION WAS LIKE UP AND DOWN..FIND THE STUPID LIM KAH WENG AND I DONT KNOW HE DIE WHERE D== I JUST FOUND A WAY TO GET MYSELF AWAY DROM THIS CRUEL WORLD...USE THE HEADSET ..STUCK IN MY ER EAR ON THE THE VOLUME TO THE MAX.IMEAN MAX THE VOLUME.. I DONT WANNA KNOW WHAT IS HAPPENING TO THIS WORLD..CRUEL WORLD...AND ESPECIALLY... I LIKE THE DRUM SOUNDS LIKE...I OIKE HOW S THE DRUP SOUNDS LIKE* LOL........MY HEART FOLLOW THE RYTHYM BEAT AS WELL! THIS IS SOOOO CRAZY!!!! I'M ACTUALLY TRYING TO CRAP AS MUCH THING AS I CAN...CRAP CRAP CRAP... SO DAM SERIOUS AWESOME WITH THIS HEADSET ON BABE! DAM LONG DIDNT USE HEATSET D... CUZ MY DAD LOST IT.. I THK.LOL.. TYHE ONE I'M USING ONE IS BELONG TO MY BROS...I KNOW THE STUFF HERE IS S LISTED DOWN CLEARLY AND TOO DETAIL...BUT WHO CARES? THIS IS MY BLOG...I CAN CRAAP WHATEVER I WANT... NO RULES MAN.... NO RULES :P HMMM...DONT KNOW WHY SUDDENLY WANNA WATCH SMURFS SO BADLY!WHAT ELSE CAN I DO RIGHT NOW? DONT FEEL LIKE STOP POSTING...NOT ENOUGHOK.. I THK IS ENOGH NOW...LOL. THX FOR READING MY CRAP..AND COUNT HOW MANY CRAP IN THIS POST K? K THXX BYE! OF CRAP..LOL...

September again O.o

终于看完了 “幸福最晴天”。。。
感觉蛮好的。。。
但是一切都是假的呀。。。我就不相信世上有那么完美的爱情嘛。。。
写话语的感觉好奇怪呢。。。hehe。。。
was listening to justine bieber's song.. remind me of April's life...sad month it suppose..LOL
the reason JB remind me of April life is because of hi concert in Malaysia..
that period of time i was just keep listening to his song.. so now right..while i listen to his song it will remind me my month and how i feel that time... hmmm.....
is September agn... waoh..so fast right..lol....
after half year of me braking up with him d lu...... but of course today not the exact day la... 2 more days...LOL...
hmm... for me, the past 2 years...Sep is my lucky & Happy month..
but this year...it wont be i thk . haha...
i'm watching 醉后决定爱上你right now...
is the way much more funnier than 幸福最晴天
dont really know the story yet.. it should be ok gua? :)
nights  :D