the conversation.

so....he talked to me in facebook this afternoon.you know.its weird that i dont get shock or anything with that.
what i did was curious about why didnt i feel excited.ok i did lah.but....not that ... OMGOMGOM HE TALK TO ME. but there's the word HAPPY.not very
and the fear comes to me slowly. and i didnt know what to reply and should i or not.well... still friends la . i replied.and then i never get a reply from him d.i dont know is it the way i reply let him thk that i didnt want to talk to him or he got nothing to talk or he didnt want to talk d.
you know how suck i feel when the person talk to you and then he/she offline after few minutes he/she starts the conversation without saying bye.and you replied like an idiot with no reply?what?! no reply?
dont ask me why am i so sensitive and i'm not.
i dont like it if its a male or female.look .its a matter of respect lah.
and then....i dint hope for anything.cuz i'm so hopeless towards him.totally hopeless.some more lately i've been so mad towards him for how he used to hurt me . directly hurt me.and that makes me let go and never ask him for the reply.somehow.i miss him.

and i got this from someone's tumblr.i dont have tumblr so i share it here.this is actually what i wanna say and thk.this is so in time to let me find out this.

peace]

9/3/12

this photo taken 2 or 3 years back.HAHAHA. i looked so peaceful .but not anymore.

i've thought of blogging 3 hours ago .but i've been so busy on viewing someone's blog.haha so random.i hate my blog so much.i hate all the post .haha..so shitty compare to the blog i was reading...awesome blogger :D
and also, envy those pretty girls always got pretty picture to upload.and i just saw a twins uploaded their picture on facebook. they looked so sweet.and i was actually staring at the comp screen...and the num of "like" keep on increasing.da fuq so envy :3
i feel so lifeless .what i've bloged about all this while mostly about my negative thoughts and i'm being a complainant.i know.shit comes.i dont wanna be so despo ==

ok here's my post/ my day

i started my day with stopping the alarm. haha.i usually set more than 3 alarm in diff time . the 1st alarm-let me know that its time to wake up. 5 minutes later the 2nd alarm-wake up to check my twitter or facebook.haha.nah,actually i just wanna make myself to open my eyes and "warm up " my brain.3rd alarm-i will be late if i still lying on bed.when the time i read those status update.it really warm up my brain.it works.and then i suddenly though of my dream that i had before waking up.i dreamt about the guy,once mine and i hoping to get a chance to talk to me after i lose him.as time goes by,i can only get to see him,talk,laugh with him in my dreams after a longlong day missing him,thinking of him.and the one in the one in the dream will never be the reality him.and everytime i waking up with those kind of dream related to him.i feel so bad.and i'm blamming myself for creating so many imaginating image of me and him.

and then...school.half of them absent due to the day after the last day of test.haha.i've aspected not having any class today.and i will be enjoying it.but then...
i've enjoyed playing volley ball during PJK with friends.but not other periods. suck much..