19/12/12

Well. Today Is a day to be remembered :) the day of me going into the 4th relationship. Officially.i was so happy.but at the same  time, there are so many things to thk of and worry abt. Well..I'm  sure i got more mature on thinking. And I'm  sure i got more understand about relationship between a couple.you cant guarantee forever.especially in this generation .relationships never last long.just too weak...what can we do is let the things  and feelings flow naturally. You cant control the feelings. When you lost it, you never get it back easily and that isn't  what you wanted.i never trust anyone in a relationship anymore .promises at the end, you get nothing.god decide for us.Well. the one who hurt me the most.my ex. I learnt alot .remember how we got together and how we seperated.thats the hardest.for me . The broke up lowered  my self esteem, i lost myself,take more caution on everything that might harm ownself(feelings) ,lost confidence,and afraid to believe.perhaps  i need to be a real belieber and learn to believe :p  And i make sure the nxt relationship will last forever.but you know, thing wouldn't  happen the way you want.
and make sure both of us love each other.

Yup. I found him. Actually i dont really know how much he likes me. But i do like him alot. And this makes me worried. Have you heard of the one who loves more will probably be the loser  in the love game?. Sigh. Trying not to give so much for now.

The interest he has is so much diff from mine.that makes diff topics.we will never do the same thing in the future. Exp, he is going sunway college and im going form 6. Not in the same class anymore.study the same thing, taking the same exam. The other things is, i dont really talk much and he's  talkative. he's  a playfull person and one day he will get bored of me. One more thing, my parents. They woulnt allow me to get into any relationship until i finished my studies. That makes us hardly can meet.

Well, that would be okay if im single to attend ns. But things are diff now. Freaking 3 months can chg anything ..2 more weeks till i leave. Just A blink of and eye.
this relationship is still weak . Sigh. You know. The starting of the year never good to me in these few years. Form 3,it seperated me and my ex .but we got back together at the end of the year. Form 4, it seperated us once agn.nxt year, have to attend ns. Haih.i just dont wish the same thing happen as the way i seperated with my ex.the reason. Teach me how to thk positively?