bad ending #2011

i got the feeling tonight is gonna be a NOT good night.
12.22am right now. is it consider too late? lol.
my dad is out now.he will probably call me go to bed if he sees me sitting infront of the comp.
i wish i have a personal laptop. so that i can install what ever i want.or online anytime i want.
and so blogging in my room. no one can disturb me.
well. i feel bad losing a friend. a great man.it happened yesterday..
a real shock in the early morning.i saw tweets abt SHAWNE all around twitter and facebook as well.ans the 1st question came to my mind was..what happened/which Shawne.i cant believe what i saw.i hoped it was a prank or something.was actually waiting for a comfirmation that telling me its a joke.but i got to know its true.and the memories of him came to my mind.the 1st day we know each other,the last time i saw him.


the day we got to be friend: 2011 jan. around merentas desa . you are AJK or something of rumah hijau and you pass the num to the rumah hijau member.. going class by class.you were actually joking around.HAHA.what a joker.i remember how you called my name that day.HAH.miss your voice. we got some talk sometimes after school with kehui. one time kehui left and you asked me about him" so how are you and him" haha. and when i asked bout him.he said that he was so frustrating. lol.. was that considered sharing SUM SHI? haha
and the last day i saw you was Nov 2011. you came sch ...and you were seaching for Noelle and you passed by me and chat with me using Chinese.haha.. my friend told me that she had a shock hearing you speak in Chinese.haha.hmm.. never thought of that will be the last time i see you :(

R.I.P :'(

i just got mad at those who happy enjoying life.well something wrong happened to me.while i was telling my bro bout this. tears appeared in my eyes and i was trying to hold back.i dont really like to show my sadnest infront of my bro.lol.
and the moment i post on his wall. tears come agn.terrible feeling that i know i post on his wall and forever never get a reply from him </3. the world got one less great man,joker.
no more jokes :(
maybe i'm just a super normal friend to him or not even a though in his mind.
but Shawne.. you will always be remembered by us . we love you Shawne!

i paid a visit to his house with keli ,kehui and keli's friend(a guy).
well he's funny. his wallet droped and he said " wo de qian bao die dao" instead of "wo de qian bao die liao" lol.and while we passed by the guard house.the guard ask where were we going. and he ansed"pergi rumah kawan mati" instead of"pergi rumah kawan yang meninggal dunia" it was so LMAO.

quite lot of his friend came. we went in and have a look at him.and i pray for him :( after that we went out and sit there for an hour. i cried so badly after reading Noelle's status :'( deepest condolence to his family and friends. well.. once agn..you know we love you Shawne!life is too short to foo around.appreciate ppl around us. live well.we will never know whats next will me happen to us.

and because i went to pay a visit. it consider outing d. i planned to ask my dad if i can outing with my friends on that day (tuesday).but now i have to ask for the permission two days later.incase he dont let me hang out with friends with the excuse "you just went out ytd"
i hate to be the host of an event.seriously :(
no one understand me.

15/12/11

this pic is nth related to this post.just random pic of my dog :P
now i know whats on your mind *finally a new post* LOL.
but a boring one.HAHAS
now i'm trying to fix my blog right.i feel so suck la this blog.
just came back from Bio class with timothy, meiling, sohan and aaron..
i dont even understand .well... i know i'm slow.LOL
this is my 3rd class..and the atmosphere was like going down...
mood wasnt that good since ytd..hmm...


i feel like this is no not me recently..
cant really sleep well...i mean i ave to force myself to sleep.i just cant sleep even though i'm tired and i slept at 3am last night.great.
i had a dream..that would be nice if its real..but..it makes me more upset after waking up knwing that its just a dream.


Half of me wanted school reopen as fast as possible but half of me is like..NOOOO...end of the holidays.LOLs
i want to have much free time so that i can study all the form 4 sub before the sch reopen. i feel so dump :( .the worse part is..i can erase my knowledge easily.LOL
i now i wouldnt able to catch up nxt year..like so stress...
my bro started to miss schooling d.LOL..
the holiday outing plan is like going so unsmooth.HAHA
everyone have their own activities.some no transport then going vacation or hometown like that.some working.ZZzzz


and er... i feel like i'm old now.HAHA
like grown up already although i'm 16 going to 17.is like the end of the teenage or something like end of childhood.face money...and alot of prob that have to solve by ourself now.
no idea why i thk untill so far away... is like after after high school..we gonna go college.or some going to form 6. or some straight working d..then .. 25 year old consider old d..haha for me la :P
then 30 40 50 60 70..maybe i dont have that long life la..LOL..no idea what can old ppl do to not to be lifeless..HAHA..cuz i see my grandpa now everyday doing the samething ni..lol...

end with this .HAHAHA.he's cute ok?
watch this.this is funny :P
watch till the end ya :D

RANDOM

i wanna change my blog skin and stuff...but the line is just the way too SHITTY. END

grandparents 50th anniversaries

22/10.


dinner celebrating grandparent's 50th anniversaries ! :)
there's another wedding dinner going on at the same time same place...

so my aunt booked a room so we can cheong K after eating..haha

some photo before we start eating :)

small girl.

eat cake with chopstick :P

k i should wear high heels next time.
i actually add it inside and drink xD
ok this photo lack of so many ppl. so its not consider a complete family photo.
lastly..my innocent face ! :D

17/10

-------------------->>> today is a bad day for me.... SEJ exam. was actually so free after some "simply doing" LOL. so sad. if i know how to do i will be like that .my classmate was fooling around... and some busying asking answers.HAHA.
oh. and the "thing" kena my baju kurung.hope theres no ppl notice.HAHA.

You might be happy ignoring me ,
but someday you might be sad,when you might wish,
to talk to me,
but i might be nor able to do so

yup.. saw this from FB.. WOW.. so ngam my feeling right now.HAHA..
i still remember last years's today.lol.... cuz the day before he birthday...hmm.... i wished him 1 month before his birthday..some chat......and so means 1 month never talk to him d.
when ever i chat with him... i will be wanting the next time... and wait wait wait...miss him...
feeling peace now.serious. HAHA.
hmm... i bought a T-shirt from Topshop for him about 3 months ago... LOL
but... i dont know i should give him or not... most probably not.. haihs nvm lu..
i'm here to wish him Happy Birthday .


-end-

OCT

not a good month.. Stress till can die..
BM BI ,math,moral,addmath,Phy,che,bio,sej not even one sub fully cover, T.T SHIT
mood sometimes up and down ZZzZZzzz....
15th of this month is my primary school's family day... something like canteen day la.
feel like going...last year i missed it because of PMR and this year final exam==
i missed it when i was form 2 also..
my aunt send her girl attended that event and dont wanna send me.. and call me ask my dad to fetch and she knew that my dad was actually busy on his work..she's a BITCH.totally a BITCH
blah blah blah.
this is a rondom post. no photo.no point.LOL



love this song :) fix you by coldplay

26/9/11

back to 2 years ago's 26/9 it was a beautiful Sat.
the day i know him....
the day i 1st chat with him through MSN.
we enjoy the chat....even it was the 1st time..
yeah... he did brought a lot of fun and happiness to me...
but time has passed... things changed people changed....
nothing left now.....
i still miss him... even still like him...but i'm enough of chasing ;)
two years is enough for me...
well lets hope theres a better life for me without him :D

never regret knowing him tho :)